There's a first time for everything...

My good friend Cassie started a blog about her life as she calls 'being an abnormal mommy.'  I can completely relate to her in so many ways and she said she'd read my blog, so here goes.

I've been married to the love of my life for three and a half years.  We've been dealing with his debilitating back injury since two months after we met and it hasn't stopped us yet.  It has thrown many wrenches into our lives and done it's best to pull us apart.  We have three beautiful children, two from his previous marriage and our baby boy, who turns two this week.

I'm a Learning Specialist at a middle school and I mainly teach reading and science.  People think you are crazy when you tell them you teach middle school and even crazier for teaching Special Ed.  I love it.  I love my job and wouldn't trade it for the world.

I'm the bread winner, mom, wife, and everything else in my family.  Because of my husband's injury, he is very limited in his range of motion and even how long he can stand or sit in a chair.  That's why I titled my blog 'who can do it all.'  My answer is simple, no one can.  I have an amazing family and group of friends and coworkers, but what it comes down to is me.  I can choose to do the laundry or play with my kids.  I can choose to slave over dinner or throw some mac and cheese on and go to the park.  I most chose the latter or to be with family and friends.

I've had to make the decision that my family's well being comes first, not how clean my house is or how great my yard looks.  Even at my job I've had to make decisions to make time for my students or to be a slave to my paperwork, and by golly there is a lot of paperwork in Special Ed.  It's in making these decisions that I've become a better mom, become a better teacher and become a better mentor.  People fret over decisions that will not make or break their lives.  Decisions that they have no control over.  People make decisions that are not best for them, personally or professionally, either on purpose or because they feel social or morally obligated to choose. 

Here's what I say.  Make choices you can live with, minimally involved yourself with the things you can't control knowing you will most likely not be able to change the outcome, and be kind to others.  I really don't know if this is good or not, it just how I'm feeling right now and that's what needs to come out.